My Fertility Struggle

My Fertility Struggle

I’ve talked about this a time or two before but never in this depth. I have major fertility struggles. 

Everyone who knows me, knows I love kids. I have volunteered my entire life to help kids in whatever capacity I can. My whole life I just knew I was going to be a mom. It’s just who I am. 

Throughout my college years, I had a few miscarriages but thought nothing of it really. I wasn’t ready to be a mom then and just assumed that because of my party girl lifestyle I was causing it. Never once did I consider that I had fertility problems. 

After I got married the first time in my early 20’s, we reached a point about a year in where we thought we’d like to have a baby. Knowing I had miscarried before, I became obsessive over ovulation. 

Well, I was 25 and so naturally I got pregnant right away. The positive test came on a Friday and by Tuesday I was miscarrying again. I was devastated. That’s when I decided I needed help. 

I took two very different approaches to solve the mystery. 

 

 

The Science Route

First, I called a doctor. I went to see a top Reproductive Endocrinologist and Infertility Specialist Dr. Barnhart was amazing. He got me in right away and spent hours with me. He ran blood tests, genetic tests, the freaking works. We waited until my next cycle came to town to do a Sonohysterogram. I won’t lie, it’s awful. When a male doctor says it’s going to feel like your worst menstrual cramps, know he has no clue and it’s worse. 

 

So what did Br. Barnhart find? Nothing. Minus a few 1 in a billion chance of my child having a genetic abnormality, there is nothing wrong with me. My uterus, and forgive the TMI, is textbook. His words, not mine. 

The Faith Route

At the time, I was a practicing member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. As an LDS member, we had a few things coming up that I knew would offer some guidance. 

First, I could go get my patriarchal blessing. This is a once in a lifetime blessing you get and it offers some major life advice for you. They are deeply personal and private. Well each region has one patriarch so the wait time can be long. I called ours and he said “for some reason I need to see you this week,” and the appointment was set. 

Well my Patriarch said a lot of things that brought me comfort. Even now, as a non-member, I still find truth in that blessing. There was a lot in there. 

 

The Faith Route Continued

During that week, we also had our semi-annual General Conference where Church leaders share wisdom. I swear, if you go with a question, it will be answered. 

Well, my questions were naturally around fertility. 

That whole conference there were countless talks about being a parent and more specifically a mother. 

Women spoke about how much they struggled with fertility, how they had to adopt, resort to  medical professionals, 

 

I can honestly say I thank God for the miscarriages during that marriage. 

With this knowledge that there was nothing medically wrong with me and hearing from inspired leaders that fertility issues are okay and that God is still on your side, I pressed forward. 

Flash forward and it did not work out with my now ex-husband and I am forever thankful that we did not have a child in that marriage. I can honestly say I thank God for the miscarriages during that marriage.

Well, here we are in 2019 and I’m now married to a man I know is capable of fathering children. He, of course, knew about my fertility struggles before we tied the knot. When we had two faint positive tests this past month, I was elated. Maybe this time we would be okay. Maybe this time it would hold. 

For the first time in my life,  my partner was excited. He was grinning ear to ear. He was talking to our baby and telling them to be strong. We picked names. 

I thought, “maybe I can get excited this time. Maybe this is the time I don’t struggle.”

But a part of me knew to keep my guard up. Not get too excited. Wait another 5 ish weeks to get excited. Keep it from the kids. Keep it from the people in our lives. Just five more weeks and we can tell the world. 

This past Sunday, we were at Church together and a series was wrapping up. Sam, our Pastor, was speaking about Joseph from Genesis and how he lived his life knowing God was on his side. Through all of the struggles, he lived knowing God has his six. I thought to myself, “what a beautiful message. Am I living like God is on my side?” 

We left Church and I was feeling good about that sermon. We stopped by the store because the hubs wanted some soup and I needed a few more ingredients to make the soup he wanted. While there, I got this pain. A pain I knew too well. I looked at him and said, “I’m bleeding.” 

We got home and my worst fears were confirmed. Just four weeks away from being able to share with the world. Four weeks from peace. 

Crushed is an understatement. 

When you’ve miscarried as many times as I have,  it’s hard to have faith. But my ever faithful husband reminded me that God is on our side. 

Sometimes I get resentful. I won’t lie. Sometimes it’s hard to be excited when your friend is having a baby shower. Even harder when a friend tells you about their abortion. I want to be supportive but it’s hard. 

But we still have two beautiful little boys who call us Mama and Daddy. 

While miscarrying again is heartbreaking, I have to live knowing God is on my side through it all and that’s what keeps me sane. That’s what keeps me going. 

If you’re struggling with fertility, know you aren’t alone. Know that God has your back. It’s all part of a bigger plan we can’t see. While it may not make sense now, it may make sense later. Maybe we’ll never know why but He does. He knows why and that’s good enough for me. 

Hubby’s Soft Pretzels

Hubby’s Soft Pretzels

I don’t like to brag but seriously my hubs is pretty perfect. I’m from South Jersey and currently living in South Georgia. South Jersey is just outside of Philly meaning I’m slightly obsessed with soft pretzels. 

Every time we go to Florida or head north, I ensure we stop at a Wawa and grab some soft pretzels with cheese on the side of course. We also grab Wawa Iced Tea too but that’s another story. Growing up near Philadelphia, it’s really the home of the soft pretzel. There’s a Philly Pretzel Factory in every town. Have you tried dipping a fresh soft pretzel in buttercream yet? Here’s a little Philly Culinary History for ya if you’re curious about why we love soft pretzels so much. Who knew the soft pretzel had religious origins? Maybe that’s another reason I love them so much. 

Or it’s just the fact that are delish, and I can make pair them with something savory or sweet and they’re just as fabulous. 

So I’ve been missing my ability to get a pretzel on every corner lately and that’s when hubs stepped in. Having a husband who loves to share the kitchen is one of my greatest blessings. Ladies, get you a man who can whip up soft pretzels from scratch. You won’t be mad about it. I promise. 

Ashley Price with Wawa Tea
Ashley Price is slightly obsessed with soft pretzels, especially the ones from Wawa

And because I’m so obsessed with soft pretzels my hubs decided he’d make me some. 

Y’all these are to die for so I had to drop the recipe for you.  

Without further ado, here is my hub’s soft pretzel recipe

Hubby’s Soft Pretzels

Prep Time: 25 minutes

Cook Time: 10 minutes

Total Time: 35 minutes

Hubby’s Soft Pretzels

Ingredients

  • 3 cups all-purpose flour, divided
  • 1 tablespoon active dry yeast
  • 1 teaspoon white sugar
  • 2 tablespoons butter, softened
  • 1 1/3 cups water
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 3 tablespoons baking soda
  • 3 cups water
  • 2 tablespoons butter, melted
  • 1 tablespoon coarse sea salt, or to taste

Instructions

  • In a big bowl, mix together 1 cup of flour, yeast, sugar, 2 tablespoons of butter, 1 and 1/3 cup of water. Let it hang out until it gets some bubbles. About 15 minutes. Stir in the regular salt (not the coarse salt) and then slowly add the reamining fliur until you canpick that dough up and knead it. Add more flour when kneading if knead be. See what I did there?. But seriously, don't overwork the dough or you'll have tough pretzels.
  • Divide the dough into a few pieces (5 or 6) and let them take a little nap. They need their rest. Roll out a piece at a time until it's a little longer than a foot and make that sassy pretzel shape. *Personally, I don't roll them thing long and I make more dough piles so I can get a bunch of smaller pretzels.
  • Preheat the over to 450 degrees. Bring the 3 cups of water to a boil and then add the baking soda. Remove from the heat and dip your pretzels in for 45 seconds, flipping them halfway through. Also, do one at a time.
  • Put those pretzels on a baking sheet and paint with some melted butter and salt to taste.
  • Bake 8-10 minutes until a pretty golden brown and BAM you're done.
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So anyway, here they are. Super simple. Amazing. Hubs dips his in horseradish mustard but I prefer yum yum sauce. Don’t knock it until you try it. So comment below if you’ve made pretzels or plan to make them. I want to hear how they turn out! 

 

P.S. I think my hubs looks like Chase Rice. AmIRight? 

 

Mrs. Price

Mrs. Price

If you haven’t noticed, we changed it up a bit here & for good reason. I’m now Mrs. Price! 

So let’s talk about all the new changes that came with the new name. 

The Price family after tying the knot.

If you look to your left, you’ll see three kiddos. These three kiddos are now my babies, even if the one is taller than I am. 

In all honesty, I’m so thankful for the business that I started building years ago. If this is your thousandth article with me, you’ll know I suffered from multiple miscarriages when I was married previously and so I thought I’d never have kids but I built a business with building a family someday in mind. I didn’t know how I’d be a mom, I just knew I was meant to be one. 

Along comes my now husband with his three beautiful sons and BAM I’m a mama. It could not have been more perfect. With the youngest in half-day preschool, I’m able to run my business, contribute to the household financially and still do drop-offs and pick-ups. I can make cupcakes for birthday parties. I can pop in during the Christmas celebrations. I’m here to make dinners. I’m around to make sure the laundry is done. I can visit Mr. Price at work and have lunch dates with him or grab something for the band if need be, 

Oliver and I at a school function
The Price squad at a school Christmas party.
Mama, Daddy and Oliver Price at school

So much of what I’ve wanted has actualized and I’m ready to kick some booty in 2019. Now that I have everything I want personally, I’m excited to share. For once, I have a plan because it impacts not just me anymore. But really it never just impacted me, if we’re being honest. 

 That means you’ll see more mom things. You’ll see a different and more intentional side to the business. You’ll see more of my societal articles here too. It was funny, I was on a call with a new client the other day and she asked me why I wasn’t writing as often anymore. Side note, people are always watching even if you think they aren’t, but that’s a story for another time. So that’s it. You’re getting more of me and the real me. 

No Pinterest perfect photos here. We’re never Instagram worthy at my house. My hair is almost always a hot mess. 

 

We’re Pricelessly Imperfect and I wouldn’t have it any other way. 

 

Lola’s Fall Dog Treats

Lola’s Fall Dog Treats

So if you’ve been following me on Instagram, you’ll know I added a new baby to my life, Miss. Lola Belle. Let’s be honest, puppies love treats and that’s what I want to share today.

So I’m a crazy dog mom, I won’t lie to you. I got her a pool. We get mommy and me Starbucks. We basically hang out all the time. She’s a spoiled baby and I’m okay with that.

Working for myself allows me to be home with her,  training her the way I want and spending as much time with her as I want.

As a crazy dog mom, I also make her treats. I have been getting a ton of DM’s about what goes into her treats so I thought I’d share my secret.

Lola’s Fall Dog Treats

Prep Time: 5 minutes

Cook Time: 15 minutes

Total Time: 20 minutes

Lola’s Fall Dog Treats

Ingredients

Instructions

  • Preheat oven to 350 degrees
  • There's no special way to add them except when it comes to the water.
  • Mix your eggs, flour, cinnamon and peanut butter together.
  • Then slowly add water. A teaspoon at a time until you get a dough consistency
  • Roll out your dough
  • Use your favorite fall cookie cutters to create some cute treats
  • Bake for 12-15 minutes
  • Let them cool and enjoy!
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Lola and her doggy friends love them! Everyone in the neighborhood is loving them and I bet your pooch will as well!

These treats are so fast and easy! In under 20 minutes, I can have treats that my dog loves and I can feel good about.

No worries here about additives or any of that jazz. Just some healthy treats I know they’ll love!

Enjoy Y’all!

A Biblical Basis for Going Vegetarian

A Biblical Basis for Going Vegetarian

When I was in high school, I really felt called to be a vegetarian. During that time, I was in the best shape of my life and I felt amazing! I worked out constantly, was a very athletic cheerleader and was full of energy. Here’s the thing though – when I was a vegetarian, I really didn’t do it well. I didn’t really have much money to food shop with, so I just kind of just lived off salads and vegetarian snacks. Not really the best “vegetarian ways”. I had a friend who noticed this, who eventually convinced me that this was not really the right lifestyle for me, and then ended my vegetarian lifestyle.

Before my most recent move from Philadelphia, I went to visit my friend Abby, who happens to be a vegetarian, as well as a Mormon. She and I get along incredibly well, and I trust her opinion. I picked her brain a bit about why she’s a vegetarian and what inspired her to be one. Abby explained that there are a lot of scriptures referencing what we eat and refer negatively to consuming meat.

I am a hardcore researcher and planner; always have been and probably always will be.

So, because of that and my curiosity being peaked, I naturally had to research this topic extensively! I asked the missionaries about it. I searched the scriptures and prayed about it. What I found was super interesting.

I found that when many of the scriptures refer to “a meat offering” or “a meat feast”, it usually means wheat or grains. Additionally, I found in the King James version of the Bible, that whenever the word “meat” is referenced, it doesn’t mean meat. Instead when you see the word “flesh”, it refers to animals. This was confusing to me and I had a hard time understanding the meaning at first. I understand the importance of course of being healthy and nourishing our bodies, but still didn’t have a full understanding of the meaning of these scriptures yet.

All of this research brought up many thoughts for me as well. First, I really tend to think that there’s a reason why our bodies don’t process red meat that well. Dairy products as well. Second, through research, I’ve found that our bodies are not supposed to be able to naturally process a cow’s milk. If your body is easily able to process a cow’s milk, then your body has genetically mutated to adapt. But, even with that being so, many people are still lactose intolerant.

Thirdly, let’s think back to Adam and Eve for a second. Adam and Eve had to hunt and gather for their food. So, from an eternal perspective and up to recently, humans had to hunt and gather their food. People were designed to go out and physically collect their food. Meat was not always available. We can go days without it; our bodies are kind of designed for that.

Ya’ll, there a lot of serious and tough scriptures out there referring to the killing of animals for food. Some scriptures even called it an “Abomination”, meaning something unclean. What it boils down to is this – there aren’t a lot of positive words regarding this subject.  Basically, eat meat very sparingly to put it positively.

Basically, what I’m saying is that I am now aligning the way that I consume food with the scriptures and the way our bodies were designed by God. Until speaking with my friend Abbey and hearing her thoughts, I would never even have considered this again. I would love to hear your thoughts on this subject, so feel free to drop a comment below. I love to read your comments and I can’t wait to see what you have to say about this!

Below you’ll find a downloadable informative PDF containing a list of scriptural references that refer to the eating of animals, the definition of the word meat and so much more!

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Looking at life with my eternal partner

Woah. Okay so I guess it’s been almost 3 weeks since I was sealed for time and all eternity to the love of my life.

We’ve been married for almost two years so why was this different? I’m hoping I can

County Clerk wedding

saying “I Do” for the first time

explain the difference with the respect it deserves.

So, before we were simply that, married. We eloped in a county clerk’s office during my lunch (because my boss wouldn’t give me the day to get married!). Like most marriages in the beginning it was exciting but not without problems. Things really do change after you get married. We were combining everything, bank accounts, cell phone plans, etc. Things just become different. Things that didn’t bother you while you were dating can become huge fights when you’re married. Don’t think we spent a lot of time “compromising.” It was so much excitement and love and happiness.

Now that’s it has been two years, there’s a lot less compromise and a lot more love and excitement.

Being sealed in the temple was a totally different experience. Both ceremonies we had both civil and temple were beautiful in their own right. However, this sealing was different. I got to promise Alex FOREVER. Not just until death but forever.

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